dreadful.scythe alternative-emo / Pardubice

[Verse 1]
Growing up while I am stuck in my mind
And I think about life and I feel so fucked up
Never thought that I can make it somehow work and it's fine
But honestly I'm not sure if I am living or not, yeah
Days feel great when you do things that you like
I just give a fuck about people telling me to stop
I don't want to see the outside world and how life works
What is past these walls is not for me 'cause

[Chorus]
I'm not who I was
I can't keep my words
I'm not who I was
I don't feel pain now

[Verse 2]
Life is great when a person turns into world
And it seems like it's the meaning of my fucking proves
When everyone is lying about their life-changing shit
9 to 5, going hard, waking up like a bitch, yeah
Light is fading with the time, there's no stopping
Telling me to move on but honestly I am stuck in
And I'm feeling right, but it feels like something is wrong
There is so much pressure on me and my feelings 'cause

[Chorus]
I'm not who I was
I can't keep my words
I'm not who I was
I don't feel pain now

[Verse 3]
And I wish I was the kid I was born
Cool hats, no phones, skating down at the block
Being happy then, being happy now, what's it all about
Reminiscing these days that I spent on the playground
I don't feel like I'm fearing my future
And it seems like I'm just doing my own damn culture
I don't want another war in my fucking head
I just want to live my life or simply be dead, yeah

[Chorus]
I'm not who I was
I can't keep my words
I'm not who I was
I don't feel pain now