everything’s blurry you no longer know what’s real
what is this slurry that you drink and think it’s a glass of beer
always using whatever gets you high
can’t you see that there’s something wrong inside
where is the majesty of meaningful sessions
now you are ingesting all chems at any occasion
your head is only seldom clean
but purpose is clouded by daily routine
you know you can flee from your surroundings
but escaping your mind is different thing
you said you’ll know when it is time to stop
but now your will is not the force on top
it’s unbearable your life’s calling for a change
if you blame others, run away to place where you’ll be strange
regardless of your whereabouts
the cause of trouble is still not rooted out
go reach your peak
then you will see
in your depths are lurking many beasts
they always wait
and when you are not straight
on your darkest feelings they start to feast
you’re in a blind alley
you alone cannot find the way
is it time to ask for help?
you don’t have to be ashamed
because admitting our own fault
can be the final frontier
this is dead end
this is the time
you should try to find a new starting line
believe it’s never too late
castles of sand
washed off by brine
from the tears shed for the lost fake divines
you just must not fear the change
advice is of no worth you need to have it first hand
until you get hurt you’ll never fully understand
every thought you have brought
will remain saved in your brain
sounds in head screaming mad
even if you resist
you will be never the same
the tax for knowing more
you reached your peak
but now feel so weak
and it’s time to face your inner beasts
they always wait
and when you’re not straight
on your darkest feelings they start to feast
it’s unbearable your life’s calling for a change
if you blame others, run away to place where you’ll be strange
regardless of your whereabouts
the cause of trouble is still not rooted out
you know you can be on the run every day
may gods have mercy on your bastard brain
you know you can be on the run every day
may gods have mercy on your bastard brain
i cannot handle this situation
and they are after me for my debts
last option hospitalization
suddenly doesn’t look so bad
specialized care and food for rations
calm place to sort out the mess in head
finally i will find consolation
understanding i never had
